Braving The Wilderness

Just read Brene Brown’s Braving the Wilderness: The Quest for True Belonging and the Courage to Stand Alone. Exactly what I needed to read this week. This Month. Spot on.

As I move on to the next chapter in my life, I am getting lots of pats on the back. So many encouraging words. I’m trying to be in the moment and let it all soak in. So rare to have a time life this. Along with the accolades come the questions: what are you doing to do? Not an easy question to answer.

I gave my boss an entire year’s notice that I was leaving. To give my company plenty of time for my company to replace me (they’re notoriously bad about this). But I knew I would need that much time to get my things in order – and it’s taken all twelve months. I knew it would.

So what is next? I need to get my life in order. So much that I haven’t been able to do a good job due to work. Get back to the basics. I can already tell that so many people are going to try to pull me in every which direction. I can’t have that. Everyone is different. It may take me longer to knock things out. I have a ton of things that I’ve been putting off. I don’t need to sign up for this class and that, not right now any way. I’m making a to do list, of big things and small. Will try to get something productive done every day.

First of all, I need to focus on my relationship with Jesus. And Ceil. My family. My close friends. While I may have earned passing grades in all these categories, I have much room for improvement. This takes time. There are people that I need to be there for.

I need to get my own house in order, both literally and figuratively. Get in shape, physically, spiritually – in so many ways. This will not happen overnight. It will take years. I am in for the long haul. While I may not be signing up for every class offered here, there, and everywhere, I will need to branch out and have the extracurricular adventure / activity. I won’t have any trouble finding things to do.

I already have an idea of what my day will be like. I’d like to be able to get more sleep, so I won’t be waking up as early as I had to when I was working way over in Norcross. Then I have more than a full day’s worth of stuff to do. But it looks like life will be providing plenty of interruptions.

Just finished season two of A Man on the Inside. So good. Near the end Charles placed a rock on the college campus with the words YOU ARE NEVER TOO OLD FOR A NEW ADVENTURE. Words to live by, for sure.

I stayed at work past 6 pm Monday night, trying to clean things up. So much to do. Hard to remember if I don’t have a piece of paper in front of me. C had a moms meeting from 630-8. Watched Jeopardy and Monday Night Football.

Up early Tuesday to hit the gym for the second straight day. Ceil had gone to the gym around 830 am yesterday and had said it was crowded. That’s about when I had planned to start going. I kinda like it when there aren’t as many people there! Had computer issues this morning. Ugh. What some may call a first world problem.